"I am." Each conversation Qi Yan had under the curse was different, and she has relived them all, thinking carefully of what was revealed and what it means. Several people learned disparate pieces about her background, her relationship with Nangong Jingnu, and her transgressions against the Nangong family. Lan Wangji and Gu Xiang both even learned she was a woman. Yet nothing has changed; no calamity has befallen her.
She has longed, all these years, to throw off the trappings of the Wei empire and live again as herself. But she has waited so long to do so that she can no longer remember how. Her first language is rusty. Her archery skills have deteriorated. She has no family to teach her what a prince of the Chengli tribe is meant to know. And here, she doesn't even have Nangong Jingnu's company to comfort her. She is lonely, and she is lost.
Magnus reminds her of the kind of friends she had when she was young—spirited, generous and brave. She likes him very much, and she does not want to be Qi Yan of the Jin province to him, if she is allowed another option. "There were things I didn't want to be forced to say to you under a curse, but I would like to say them now. May I?"
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She has longed, all these years, to throw off the trappings of the Wei empire and live again as herself. But she has waited so long to do so that she can no longer remember how. Her first language is rusty. Her archery skills have deteriorated. She has no family to teach her what a prince of the Chengli tribe is meant to know. And here, she doesn't even have Nangong Jingnu's company to comfort her. She is lonely, and she is lost.
Magnus reminds her of the kind of friends she had when she was young—spirited, generous and brave. She likes him very much, and she does not want to be Qi Yan of the Jin province to him, if she is allowed another option. "There were things I didn't want to be forced to say to you under a curse, but I would like to say them now. May I?"