"I mean, I was already in love with Alex when I got here, and that's not gonna change, but I've been picking friends for reasons other than, you know, questing together and stuff. Figuring out what I like to do when I can choose to do basically anything. And... but...." He pauses, then barrels on. "So. I've been living out here." A gesture at the clearing. "Since the zombies. They were... hard, for me, in a way I didn't expect? And I've just been out here, thinking about things. Like how I really didn't miss fighting for my life." He takes a deep breath. "Hanguang-jun said I could find another path than just Battle Practice all the time until I die in Ragnarok. I don't know if that's actually possible, but if it is... I'm trying to figure out what it could be."